Losing it... Nope, it's LOST.

This past Saturday evening, I drew a bath for the girls. While the bath was filling, I went in our office to talk to Nate.  Upon returning to the bathroom, I found the girls were already in the bath. So was Addy's cast. It was completely submerged in bathwater and she was just playing away as if nothing was wrong. I screamed, realizing what was happening and pulled Addy out of the water immediately.

We took the measures that the physician over the phone told us to take. Blow dry it as much as possible and keep it in a sling till Monday.  We did just that. After I got off the phone with him, I bawled, knowing there was a possibility that her bones moved again.

This morning, Monday, I called the specialist right away and they scheduled us to come in this afternoon.  They looked at the cast, realized it had expanded way too much and was way too loose on her arm. It needed to be re-casted.  First, they took x-rays to make sure the bones stayed in place this time. 

They hadn't. They moved even more than last time, so this wasn't just a 'molding' problem, this was a 're-set' problem. It had to be snapped back in place.  Her doctor gave us two options.

 1. Pop it back with no medication and just do it quickly. 

 2. inject her bone with a numbing medication 

Both traumatizing, so Nate told them to just do it quickly. The doctor looked at me for a second confirmation on that decision and I just started bawling.  The nurse left to go get some tissues.

She grabbed her tiny little arm and I've never heard anyone scream like that in my entire life. I was laying next to her on the bed trying to keep her still.  Nate picked her up after it was over and while the doctor was holding her arm, took her to the x-ray room where they could make sure it worked.

I stayed back with Hailey because she was crying.  After I calmed Hailey down, I started pacing the floor. The nurse returns to talk to me and it was obvious that even she was crying.  I'm telling you people, this was UNEXPLAINABLE.  The nurse then tells me that the re-set didn't work and the bones are still popping out of place and that they need to try again.  Just then, I can hear all the way on the other side of the building, my little angel screaming her little heart out.  Again, I can't handle this, so I buckle and cry even more.  The nurse takes Hailey out to another part of the building and gives her some things to play with.  

They bring Addy back into the room and lay her down on the bed. They tell me it still didn't work after the second try.  The specialist explains to us that she thinks her bones already started healing and therefor keeping them from setting properly because there is tissue or bone in the way.

So, my eyes are huge as she explains that they have to do it AGAIN! A THIRD TIME!  This time, Nate told them to numb her first. We sat there with our poor baby trying to explain to her that they now have to give her a shot. Yeah, that didn't go over well.  They give her the shot while we are holding her still and she is crying the entire time. They had to shoot medicine right into the bone and it took a good long time for this to happen. After the doctor was finished, she left the room to let the medicine set in for a bit.  

Addy started feeling super cold and shaky so we asked them for a blanket and they brought her a warm one. Within minutes, the blanket had become cold on the outside.  She was in shock. We tried to keep her comfortable and she ended up falling asleep from being so traumatized.  

Once the doctor came back in, Addy woke up, freaked out and basically was trying to escape anyone's grasp and climb up me.  In this process, we are all afraid she is going to hurt her arm worse because it's numb and she's moving it all over the place trying to escape.  After we finally calm her down, a bit, Nate grabs her and has to just hold her in a body lock while the doctor, for the third time, sets her arm. This time, there was cracking involved.  (go ahead and throw up.. I almost did)

I was so nervous walking slowly back to the x-ray room.  This time, the x-rays looked much better, but not perfect. The doctor explains to me that there was bone growth in the way and when she reset it this time, she basically had to break the new growth out of the way in order for the bones to set properly.  Yep. It was awful.

Now, Addy is a complete mess. Completely traumatized.  She is back in a splint and soft cast because it will swell pretty good from the amount of trauma today. Friday we go in for more x-rays. This time, she can't do anything. She can't go to school at all this week and she even has to sleep with her sling ON. She is back on Lortab and just miserable. It's been two weeks since the initial break and i'm about to have a breakdown over watching her endure such a horrible situation.  I cannot even imagine going through something like this myself and to watch my sweet little girl have to endure such a hellish event is about to send me to the loony bin. So, at this point in parenting, i'm pretty sure I've lost it. If you see me walking down the street twitching, you may want to call authorities. 

Until then, please pray for little Addy that she doesn't have to end up in surgery.