Happy Birthday Addy!!!

I can't believe she is ONE! Where has the time gone? I swear with two kids, the time goes by twice as fast! It seems like yesterday you were born. We had such a fun time planning and decorating for your party.

Complete with GIANT Gerber Daisy's and bugs and butterflies all over the fence, a jumper, a cake, good food, lots of great friends and family.. we couldn't have had a better time.

Thanks for being born, and thanks for making our lives even more perfect now that you are here with us. We love you so much! Happy Birthday Baby!

Sleep Walking??

Hailey got a haircut! Sort of.. I gave her some bangs because i'm sick of her hair being in her face ALL THE TIME! I love her hair without bangs, but for her sake, it had to be done.

This is what happened the night before her haircut...

I love toddlers. I love all babies and kids stages, but the other night, we had a good laugh. Usually, when Hailey comes out of her room for any reason, she is pretty quiet, other than pulling her door shut with a loud clunk. (that's how I know she's up) Well, two nights ago, Nate and I were downstairs watching tv at about 11pm when all I hear is "MOMMY! MOMMY!". Looking at Nate confused, I walk up the stairs to see her peaking through her doorway. I turn up the dimmer in the hallway to see better when she flings open her door pointing to her bed. "my bed is all WET!" she says. Realizing she is very frantic about this, I feel around her bed and blankets to find anything wet. Nothing. She points to the exact spot and says "right there!" Still, nothing. Realizing that there is no convincing her otherwise, I get her a new blanket and tell her it's a dry one. She simply replies, "oh" and climbs into bed. Before I can walk out of her room, she is fast asleep. Weird.

So the next morning, I hear Nate in her room with her when she first woke up.
"Hailey, did your bed get wet last night?" She immediately gets excited and starts to tell him all about it. "Yeah, I flushed the toilet on my bed! My blaket got all wet! It was SAD!" she gets very emotional these days when telling stories. Nate played along, while I was laughing in the other room. Gotta love kids dreams!

Sleep walking? yep!

Where did it go?

Dear Time,

I miss you. I wish you were around more often and I wish I could share a lot of things with you.
I feel like you aren't around when I need you and I feel like you don't want to be a part of my life. What gives??

Sincerely,
Me

So, lately, i've been struggling. Mainly with the fact that I feel there is NO time to do anything anymore. I feel like my life has hit the fast forward button and I can't seem to slow it down. With me, when this happens, I usually get REALLY overwhelmed, stressed, depressed and frustrated which leads into panic attacks. Don't worry, I had one the other night.. so not fun. First one I've had in a LONG time.

Here's the thing.. I'm SO grateful for my life. I couldn't ask for a more patient, kind, loving husband and father to my sweet girls. I have THE BEST children ever. Yes, I'm allowed to say that. I worry about them a lot. Probably more than I should. I've been feeling WAY behind on so many things and just feel like I can't catch up. Meanwhile, I watch my little ones grow up so fast and wonder: Where did it go? Where did all the time go? Lately, Hailey has been obsessed with her scrapbooks.. which I am SO grateful for making and she wants to look at those and hear stories about her when she was a baby. While looking at them with her, I just can't believe how fast she has grown up.

With the fact that Nate is gone so much with work, auctions, church, sports, etc., i'm trying to find a way to simplify. I'm trying to get some time back that has decided to take a vacation and let the busy life take over. I'm so done with it. I really just need a break or I think i'm going to lose it. Anyone else feeling this way? I remember when I was a kid.. it seemed like the summer days just lasted FOREVER! Now I feel like I don't have time to even shower most days.. ewe. I know, sick. what can you do?

I feel sometimes that I may seem ungrateful for what my Heavenly FAther has blessed me with. As I look back and look in the present, I am SO grateful. I can't even believe how blessed I have been. I just miss time. And selfishly, I wish I had more.