Due Date.
today was my due date. It's been on my mind a lot the last 6 months. It's weird though. I have felt so alone in this one. I have thought about it EVERY sunday since my D and C. But i'm pretty sure i'm the only one. Sunday was my weekly checkpoint and now that the day has come, it's a little surreal. I'm sad. Dissappointed. Frustrated.
But, I also know there is a reason for everything. Hopefully I can get past it and not think about it anymore.
A little bit of a depressing post, I know. But they all can't be wonderful, right? That's boring.
Cheers to a pointless pregnancy that has brought lots of bills and frustration.
Here's to hoping for happier future Sundays!!
7 comments:
I'm so sorry, dear friend. Strangely enough, I was thinking about you just yesterday, remembering that you were due around this time. So you're not alone...people are aware of you and know that you've struggled. I don't know exactly what to say, having never been in your situation, but I know that at times our biggest trials can become our biggest blessings, but sometimes it just takes a long time for us to figure out the reasons why. I don't know if that even makes sense. Just know that I'm thinking about you and I hope that you can find some peace. I remember telling you 6 months ago that you didn't need to hurry and get over this--and I stand by that. You suffered a loss and you can be sad and mourn for that loss. Big hugs to you!
Aw Tiff, stuff like this makes me wish we lived so much closer, like next door. I think about you all the time and wonder how you're "really" doing. We've dealt a lot with this in our ward this year, and it's definitely not an easy road, but it's taught me that there are usually a lot more people aware of you than you think. We sure love you guys and are grateful for your example :)
I'm the worst friend ever. Here I dump all my crappy stuff on you and you're dealing with your loss. I know if you are writing about it you are feeling a ton worse than you are letting on. I can say this because I have a little inkling of your feeling, but there was a reason your little one didn't make it to this day. You won't know until you are reunited, but know that there was nothing you did or could have done. Wish I could be there for you. I love you! Call if you need to chat some more.
You wrote what I feel. I had my miscarriage on a Sunday too and every Sunday I think of it and I'm starting to mark the months now instead of weeks. My friend just told me she's pregnant and I pretended that didn't hurt. It just doesn't seem right, sometimes. You're right, you can't always be cheerful and happy. Sometimes things just suck. But you are not alone and I'm sorry you're going through it.
Wish I had something amazing to say... I think of you often, and I (like Kristy) have been thinking of this in the last little while, knowing the due date was around this time. Wish things like this didn't have to be...
Love you.
Tiff, I can repeat what others have said that I have also been thinking of you lately knowing you were due right around now. Obviously you are loved! We have talked about this and I hope you know that I recognize all of your losses and admire you for the way you have dealt with them. We all gain strength from each other and I am so glad you are my sister. Love you!
Oh Tiff - I'm sad that I'm just reading this! I would have taken you out for ice cream... or called you... or something! And Kristy's right - you're not the only one thinking about it. I have thought about and worried about you. I could tell you haven't been quite the same since the miscarriage, but I hadn't realized it's been haunting you each Sunday like this. You're a trooper and amazing. Love you!
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